Araw ng Wika 2013

This is an overdue post and I am really sorry because our schedule is really hectic.

Last week was the bomb. It was surreal and full of happiness. We had newscasting, spelling bee, essay contest, making of banderitas, open house, thanksgiving ceremony, SG Day, Literary Contest and Family Day. It was full of activities and I never really thought that it will be as successful as it should be. It was the best above all maybe because it's my last year (tears).

Speaking of, looking back in all the photos that was uploaded in Facebook, it breaks my heart to think that few more months till graduation.  It breaks my heart to think that I am going to college. It breaks my heart to say goodbye to high school life. It breaks my heart to think that all of a sudden, it will just be a memory-beautiful one. My four years of staying in Hope gave me memories I can treasure in my heart until I get old. Sad to say, goodbyes are inevitable (tears).

Enough with my drama. I prepared a special post to confess all my emotions in my high school journey.

So now, this is what I wore in our Araw ng Wika. We had a grand activity that day. We had singing contest, dance contest and intermission numbers from various clubs in our school. Hopean's talents really burst that day. In the afternoon, we had lights and sounds and a tour about Philippines from alibata language to jejemon language and we watched a short presentation about our country, Philippines. Again, it was successful.

Ootd. Hashtag ILovePhilippines!

As for my hair, I decided to curl it and pin it in the side to highlight my sister's heavy earrings. I opted for naked face to focus more on my outfit and btw, I don't wear make-up lol.

I love this picture. Can't you see that my arms look so thin here?

I looked so bulky because my top is loose.

To tell you guys, this is my mom's surprise gift for me. She bought this dress when she was in Manila. There was even a typhoon when she was there and she really made a effort to surprise me. At first, I was so maarte because I wanted to rent a balintawak you know because I never experience that in my 15 years of existence but yeah, my mom did well and I love her so much. 

Shoes for that day. It was too light and comfortable that

I feel naked wearing it not to tell you that the heels are 4 inches long hehe.

stylishzai going crazy.

Photo taken in our house.

Photographed by my younger sister.

Baka hindi ninyo alam na marunong ako gumamit ng wikang Filipino. Lingid sa kaalaman ng marami pero mas nadadalian ako mag sulat ng Tagalog kesa sa Ingles. At eto pa pala, ako ay isang 100% Filipina kahit ang akala nang iba ay ako ay may lahing Chinese dahil sa aking mga mata.

Room 3: I was the narrator and my Babs was the overall in charge of the lights and sounds.

Ang reyna at ang hari. Sooo bagay, right?

Picture after the stressful yet fun filled araw ng Wika.

Can't still accept the fact that that was my last.

I'm craving for more eh.

It's more fun in PHCS.

You do?

I do.

-ATS

"Through Him Who Strengthens Me"

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Just when I tried to look in the dusty but somehow clear mirror and I saw nothing but my shameful flaws, my untold dilemmas and my hideous scars. They reflected towards me in a most painful way. “They are really persevering just to tell to my ears and my eyes that I’m no good.” I uttered.

Yes, I see no beauty in the mirror. I see no joy even when I try to smile the best that I can. I see no contentment. I see no love. All I can see is this plain girl who knows nothing about her future period.

I am pretty much wrapped up in my melancholic-ing forlorn-ing disparaging and confusing thoughts of mine.

My mind is drowning me. My mind is a hurricane. It swallows me and I can’t even breathe. I am a victim of my own mind and my thoughts. I can’t seek for any help. I’m helpless. I’m lost. I wanted to vanish like boom I’m gone.

Why on Earth would I be very lonely like this? Why do I feel this? Why am I always attached to this kind of emotion? But I can’t help it and it’s my fault. I can’t blame the universe neither the stars. It is my choice, my responsibility.

Love. Hate. Insecurities. Confidence. They always argue but the negative vibe always wins.

BUT

This came this Man who saved me from the darkness of the darkness of the night. He released me in my horrifying thoughts. I am saved. He's my savior.

To end this, no matter how painful our struggles are, there is a God who loves us. Who strengthens us all the time. There is this God who will change our perspectives. He loves us. He truly does.

And I wanted to close this with a verse from Philippians 4:13 saying:

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."

Thank you, God.

For you.

For you
Flashback
To say that I am in a vulnerable - almost fragile - state would be an understatement. It is taking all the courage within me to even write this post, much alone publish it for all to see. Only a few people will understand - truly understand - the reason behind this post, and I would like to leave it at that. I have not much to say, because I'm afraid once I start talking, it will all pour out, and by then, it would be too late to reverse the words I have let slip. I do not wish to burden my blog with my emotional distress, because I'd like to keep my personal life out of the public eye as much as possible, but I have to make an exception. I know I will look back on this one day and laugh, but for now, bear with me.

It's so sad that it becomes almost humorous how close you can get to someone, and have the world take it away from you in a blink of an eye. Like, "nope, time's up. I'm taking said person away from you and you can't do anything about it." You know how it goes... Just when you thought you reached the point of no return (the good kind, mind you), when things were suddenly becoming much better - of course everything will end abruptly. Like when you download Adobe Photoshop and you get a month-long trial. It's awful.

These people come into your life unannounced, and leave you a little more broken and wiser than when they found you, but pretty much the same nevertheless - surprised. Surprised, because you never expected this person to mean so much to you. And surprised, because they've gone as quickly as they arrived.

I have so so much more to say, but I do not wish to go on. I'm okay, if anyone is concerned. I mean, not really, but I will be. Have a listen to the playlist below. It should be able to tell you the story I cannot bring myself to say, through lyrics and the order in which they have been put.

To said person - thank you. For teaching me a lesson. For everything. I truly do hope you are happy. I guess my happiness is worth sacrificing for yours.

"Goodbye may seem forever. Farewell is like the end. But in my heart is a memory, and there you'll always be." - Widow Tweed (Fox & the Hound)

Credits: Nina Pineda 

This is how you lose her.

This is how you lose her. 

You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.

You must remember when she forgets. 

You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.

She remembers when you forget. 

You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the  beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.

You must learn her. 

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to. 

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her. 

Source: tumblr

Andrea's sweetest 16th (Part 2)

Part two:
So, the story behind all of this is too amazing to put into words. Basta, the celebrant didn't know anything. She's innocent- lovely innocent lady thinking about what might happen in the wedding that is actually her birthday. She didn't know we practiced in weekends just to make a seductive dance presentation in her birthday and many more. To sum up all, it was worth-it and probably the best birthday of my classmates that I have ever attended. Naks!

Below are the pictures especially photographed for you.

(In my mind: Ibo-blog ko 'to. Promise!)

Anyway, just for credits, I borrowed Neil and mommy Roze's photos.

Tehee! I hope you'll love it. And I wanna tell you that

we are shamelessly shameless for taking thousand of selfies

and posting them publicly. Sorry. Haha!

Pagbigyan, minsan lang mgamukhang tao.

(Photo taken at Hotel Centro | Photo courtesy: Neil)
One more sleep before her sweet 16! So here are some of the dancers including me.

(Photo courtesy: Vince Relampagos)

(Application: Camera 360)
First three photos: At our balcony; featuring our first layer makeup and hairstyle.
Bottom two photos: Tada! Here's how we look; featuring our hair and makeup! And I'm showcasing my magenta lips!

(Application: Camera 360)
Sawa na kayo no? Hahaha! Sorry guys. After I remove my make up, I'll stop being vain.

With Lira Cadorna.
I have to resize the photos because they're too many. Hahaha! Again, pagbigyan kami. Minsan lang 'to. 

Isn't she lovely? Isn't she wonderful? Isn't she pretty? :)

Pretty + Pretty = Pretty
With my pretty Baba and her pretty mom!

(Photo courtesy: Rozella)
ETO NA. THIS IS IT! THE CELEBRANT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANDY. I KNOW WE'RE NOT THAT CLOSE. YEAH BUT I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT DAY EVERYDAY. GOD BLESS YOU AND I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST THIS WORLD CAN OFFER. TEHEE~

(Photo courtesy: Neil)
Hashtag #LakasMakaStolen

(Photo courtesy: Rozella)
This is our seductive SPG dance! Lol! I kid. It was, oh yeah, great! Featuring Dan, my partner! Hahaha! Find me.

Photo with my classmates! What a great night.

(Photo courtesy: Neil)
With Aya, my love.
She's one of the fashionista icons in our school and yeah, can she just give me her height? She's so tall!

(Celina, Me, Dan, Jireh, Kimpee)
Mom's reaction when she saw this.
Mom: Aba! Sumasandal kana sa lalaki ha?
Lol! Eh sa mas mukha pang lalaki yung katawan ko diyan eh. Haha! I kid. Sorry, Dan.

With my idol- Celina Setias. She's one of those great singers. Please, grab a copy of her future album.
Wait a second. Can't you see?
My big braso. Lol. Minsan, fail din ako umangle eh. Haha!

With my gorgeous mom!
Look-a-like ba? Nanay ko yan eh! Definitely one of my most fave pics in that event.

With Neil. Dagdag height yung mountain kung hairstyle. Agree? Plus the heels. However...

(Photo courtesy: Neil)
Lakas ko kasi mag photo-bomb eh yun pala naka focus lang sa kanya. Hastag #MajorEpicFail
So bale ngayon, hindi na. Hahaha! Ayos ba?

With handsome Bagsik! I look so fat so I have to crop the picture. ('Gre ka arte)
Okay yeah. So hindi talaga kami bagay. Kay ano kasi siya. Oh well. Haha!

Three gorgeous girls! Love their looks.

(Photo courtesy: Rozella)
This girl is on fire! Fayer! Fayer!
(Repeat 1000 times)
So yeah, we're having LSS on that song and on that night, we feel like we're better that Alicia.
That picture is after the games, the speeches, the buffet dinner and ...
It was so great.
GREAT. GREAT. GREAT.

(Photo courtesy: Rozella)
So you might be wondering why did I? Who are them? Why are we getting so kilig? Love overload chos! (Magagalit na sakin si Andy neto eh.) Would you mind to take a look again on the picture and you will see our kilig faces. Nga nga kung nga nga! Kilig to the nth power kami!

(Photo courtesy: Rozella Espino)

(Photo courtesy: Rozella Espino)
So here are the 16 girls and 16 boys. We look so hot pink there and it was really a night to remember. No regrets. No arte. No et cetera. It was really fun and I want part two just like this post. Hahaha! It was a Blast with capital B!

So I hope you like the photos here.
Click this to see the Part 1 post.

God Bless, people. :)

Andrea's sweetest 16th (Part 1)

Hello everyone! So here I am again! Long time no post and I am really really sorry about that. I basically don't take photographs of my ootds because I don't have plenty of time to blog it because each time I blog, I still need to transfer pictures, edit them, resize them, think of thoughts then upload them and publish them. It's a long job and add to that my multi-networks surfing (I usually sleep at 2am just to make a good post. weee!).

Yes, school is now starting and a month just passed. I didn't even notice that. I am a proud Valor student (Do I really need to inform you that? Haha!). I joined 2 clubs but I am not contented because I wanted to join the glee club but I think I can't manage having 3 clubs so I stick having 2 clubs only. So summer passed and I am still short (as always (*insert sad face*). We had 4 new classmates all in our section which is cool! I am pretty much happy being a CAT officer And .... (I know you are in state of boringness) (skip)

On 29th of June, we celebrated Andrea Adriano's sweet 16th. It was a blast and I really enjoyed the night. By the way, the last second before her birthday celebration at Hotel Centro, she still thought she'll attend a wedding not knowing the fact that she'll attend her own grand birthday. It's amazing to know how sweet her mom is and how awesome we are because we kept a big cool secret. Thousand claps for us!

So here is what I wore:

I will be showcasing you all my ohlala cheekbones! Please, forgive me for being fat. I can't help it. I do love eating. 

You know, I always pig out these days because food is my anxiety reliever and just to tell you my random weirdness, few hours before the event, I did 20 sit-ups hoping that my big tummy will magically turn small. Hahaha! But it didn't. Yeah. Obviously.

I had my dress tailored at Ajeyas and had my make-up done by my best friend's aunt. She used to work at Bong Villanueva salon and would you believe me that she already makeup-ed  Anne Curtis, Sarah Geronimo and many other stars? She's a great make up artist and I really recommend her to you! Isn't it amazing that my face turned out so different? Hahaha! Whatever basta she's awesome especially the eyebrow job. Ang cool lang. Nga nga ako. It was home-serviced and few of my classmates namely: Rayza, Lira, Abby, and Bea went to our home to have our face be beautified. It was awesome and we had a great time.

Bestfriends for five years and still counting...

With my blogger bestie, Lira Cadorna (Vanilla Icecream).

Isn't she gorgeous, charming and pretty plus don't you love her dress?

It's awesome with large ribbon at the back.

To tell you a fact, the structure of my dress is inspired by Sherri Hill because most of their designs are corset and that V-shape. I DIY-ed the silver beading in my dress and I felt sorry that I weren't able to take a close picture of it. At the back, my design has xxxxx on it. (I don't know how to call it) and lastly, I DIY-ed my shoes. I put, just the the motif, hot pink sequins on my pumps. Ins't it cool? One good thing about these shoes are its skin because I can still remove the sequins without ruing it. I really love it!

PS: You might be wondering why our lips are pale because that's the first step in our beautification session with Ate Prency (makeup artist). After that shoot, we went back to the office (that's where we had our face and hair done). She re-touched our face and finally finalized it. You'll see my magenta lips on soon on my blog so stay tuned!

Guys, this is just part one. Click here (Part two) to see what happened in her birthday!