Thursday, May 8, 2014

Old on the outside, New in the inside

Hi, this is stylishzai and I am still alive. You might be wondering what happened to me in the past few months for being inactive, the reason was I find it hard to balance between what my passion and my responsibility as a student, daughter, sister and ate. And to tell you readers, I finally graduated with flying colors (To God be the Glory) and was accepted in a prestigious school-a school that I am supposed to pass because my sister is studying there-University of Santo Tomas!! There are a lot of happenings and changes in me but I am still a blogger who loves sharing a piece of herself through fashion posts.

These pictures were taken last February 2014 and it took me a long time to post this because I am busy. So what is the meaning of my title? The thing is I still look the same-same flaws, insecurities, smile, everything but I am in the process of changing what is inside of me. I am like the new version of me- Zaira version 2.0. I am focusing on my spiritual growth and enhancing my relationship with my family because I will go to college and temporarily be away from them. What I am trying to develop is my strength. I always make it to a point to reflect with myself atleast once a day. I learned to love cleaning my room although it is still clean and I love sticking post it notes on my wall to remind me that I am special and champion!

So here is my fashionista side. I love denims and I decided to pair it with a plain black top, aztec shorts and nude heels to elongate my short legs. I hope you like my combo!


As you can see, I love side view poses because it makes my nose look matangos hahaha so forgive me. I forgot my security question in my yahoo mail (zaira_mae123@yahoo.com), and my twitter, and 2 tumblrs are inactive because I forgot my password hehe so I am just sticking on my Facebook, this blog and my Instagram. I quite regretted posting immature stuffs in my social media accounts because I am afraid that you might think that I am a bad reckless person since I feel like posting stuffs when I feel angry, sad, unloved hahaha so forgive me and anyway, I've changed. I love you guys, I hope you will still read my blog even if I am not always active. God Bless!!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Perspective

No hate. I know I know. Let me explain. I am indeed wearing pek pek shorts hahaha!
hashtag unconservative // hastag kadiri // hashtag slut // hashtag whore // hashtag *you are free to judge me but don't forget the quote: "What Sally says of Sussie says more of Sally that of Sussie."
I DIY-ed them and wouldn't it be okay if I will wear them for the second time just in a couple of minutes and then I'll take pictures and I'll post them in my blog, After all, I just wore them inside our house and I promise that I won't ever wear shorts are short as that and as you can see: my legs are big-really big and I admit that I am insecure about that. Tee + shorts + slippers = simplicity and that's what I wanted to showcase to you because my point here in my post is to explain my thoughts. If truth be told, it's my blog and if you don't want what you are seeing here, you are free to go and to those who are staying, I love you hehe!
*my thoughts are to be continued*





Monday, October 28, 2013

The Girl I'll Never Be

So I am back after several weeks. This post is not new probably two months old; I saved this in my draft post. I am busy for the past days because I am starting with my thesis, we had exam and I joined the JS Camp. So here it goes: (Let's not make the caption long nalang right?)
I am a girl- simple, shy, soft, funny to close friends, hilarious to my friends, cold to strangers, loves ice cream, loves chocolates, loves to laugh, sometimes moody, short, long hair, light brown-toned, full of flaws, don't often speak, sometimes unproductive, blessed, christian, hopean, dreamer, blogger and *insert infinite decribing words*

This is me and I guess, I don't have to change for someone I'm not. I am blessed with my life although sometimes I would just feel wrecked because I focus on negative things that are around me. I do that-sometimes. I would normally look at my self and re-evaluate my life and I will, out of nowhere, rate my self and I will cry and then my mom would stop me from crying and then my dad also and I will pray and sleep and the next morning, everything is new. I guess, it's a cycle so just read it all over again.

The girl I'll never be:

  • Drink liquor and smoke (only sweets!)
  • Say bad words (really guys, I don't say those words ever since and I hope until I die hehe)
  • Change my God (ever!)
  • Change my sex (lol, is this a need?)
  • cut my hair really short (this is never my plan)
  • and more... (I feel like I need to restore my thoughts pa so I can say more haha)
I would, I guess, stay sweet for the rest of my life.
The dress (worn as skirt), and top is my older sister's so yeah guys,
I wanted to dedicate this post for her as a surprise
but then she's here so I'll go for my plan B instead.
My point in here is that sometimes we have to examine ourselves and think of what we want in our lives and where we want to be in the future because we must have that certain vision for us to be in the right and same track until we reach the end. Like for me, I don't want to say bad words so I would really think the words that I am going to say before I spit them right? 
Let's enjoy our one week of summer although our teachers left us countless project and must dos. I really wanted to be productive so that I won't procrastinate but I don't feel like doing my HRR and thesis. So yeah, God Bless you all and maybe one day or another, I can update you guys with my new refreshing posts. BTW, don't mind my grammatical errors and wrong spelling words because I am lazy to re-edit them again hehe. You won't judge naman right? Love you all!

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Araw ng Wika 2013

This is an overdue post and I am really sorry because our schedule is really hectic.
Last week was the bomb. It was surreal and full of happiness. We had newscasting, spelling bee, essay contest, making of banderitas, open house, thanksgiving ceremony, SG Day, Literary Contest and Family Day. It was full of activities and I never really thought that it will be as successful as it should be. It was the best above all maybe because it's my last year (tears).
Speaking of, looking back in all the photos that was uploaded in Facebook, it breaks my heart to think that few more months till graduation.  It breaks my heart to think that I am going to college. It breaks my heart to say goodbye to high school life. It breaks my heart to think that all of a sudden, it will just be a memory-beautiful one. My four years of staying in Hope gave me memories I can treasure in my heart until I get old. Sad to say, goodbyes are inevitable (tears).
Enough with my drama. I prepared a special post to confess all my emotions in my high school journey.
So now, this is what I wore in our Araw ng Wika. We had a grand activity that day. We had singing contest, dance contest and intermission numbers from various clubs in our school. Hopean's talents really burst that day. In the afternoon, we had lights and sounds and a tour about Philippines from alibata language to jejemon language and we watched a short presentation about our country, Philippines. Again, it was successful.
Ootd. Hashtag ILovePhilippines!
As for my hair, I decided to curl it and pin it in the side to highlight my sister's heavy earrings. I opted for naked face to focus more on my outfit and btw, I don't wear make-up lol.
I love this picture. Can't you see that my arms look so thin here?
I looked so bulky because my top is loose.
To tell you guys, this is my mom's surprise gift for me. She bought this dress when she was in Manila. There was even a typhoon when she was there and she really made a effort to surprise me. At first, I was so maarte because I wanted to rent a balintawak you know because I never experience that in my 15 years of existence but yeah, my mom did well and I love her so much. 
Shoes for that day. It was too light and comfortable that
I feel naked wearing it not to tell you that the heels are 4 inches long hehe.
stylishzai going crazy.
Photo taken in our house.
Photographed by my younger sister.
Baka hindi ninyo alam na marunong ako gumamit ng wikang Filipino. Lingid sa kaalaman ng marami pero mas nadadalian ako mag sulat ng Tagalog kesa sa Ingles. At eto pa pala, ako ay isang 100% Filipina kahit ang akala nang iba ay ako ay may lahing Chinese dahil sa aking mga mata.
Room 3: I was the narrator and my Babs was the overall in charge of the lights and sounds.
Ang reyna at ang hari. Sooo bagay, right?
Picture after the stressful yet fun filled araw ng Wika.
Can't still accept the fact that that was my last.
I'm craving for more eh.
It's more fun in PHCS.
You do?
I do.

-ATS

Friday, September 13, 2013

Deceived

Because I am pretty much not really ready to start this blog post, I think I just need to start it with me in the picture looking and actually unready.
And now you'll know why my title is "Deceived".
(My topic does not match my mood in the pictures because
the caption is not intended for the post but you need to know so yeah.)
(switch to deep mode)
Not all things that you see are real and not all things that you see aren't real either. In the same way, not all things that you can’t see aren’t real and vice versa (redundancy). They eyes can be very much deceiving. It can be the source of a fatal argument or a fresh friendship but in all exception, as I know and as what I believed in, true love doesn't require eyes. I just can’t explain it but I really know that when it’s real and it’s right and it’s from God, it is blind. You don’t care how horrible she looks in the morning, how short she is or how badly her voice sounds because for you, she is beautiful just the way she is and like a bouquet of fresh flowers in Paris.
(Say what? I think I have made my point in my message and I hope you understood what I meant. In association with the title, fashion can also be deceiving like wearing heels to make your legs longer, stockings to hide your flaws, and many more. In all angles of the world, there is this word ‘deceive’ and we must not be swallowed by that tricky word and action.)
I feel so pressured because I will be taking college admission tests. I always hope and believe and aspire that I will be able to pass them all but if it won’t happen, I know that God has His better purpose for me. That's what I always say that God’s better purpose will make me a better individual and a follower of Christ. And that purpose is thousands better than my thoughts. Agree? Amen!
Just to update you my metamorphic lifestyle, I gladly become less addictive to clothes since mom started to open her new business which is Fashion 101 boutique. I began to feel the weariness of seeing tons of clothes and my eyes are being sick of it. Oh really? That is why I rarely buy clothes nowadays and even more rarely  in Palawan because shopping is Manila in my humble opinion is never been boring for the reason that I can find effortlessly cute and chic clothes with an amazingly good prize. Right now, I just mix and match my overused clothes. And that is how I practice my own version of practicality. *clap clap clap*
As for my credits, I personally thank my financier who is my biological daddy (I have, had and will have many fathers and dads in school. I’m just making things clear). I know he’s now happy because my vices are somehow vanishing. Dad will only spend his money to my doctor. I can't state you the story specifically because it is sensitive and I don’t feel stating it in my blog but now, I am giving you hints so just disregard what I had just said.
So one thing you probably notice in all my pictures are my uneventoned-ness or what I usually call “ombre skin”. Yes, my legs are indeed fairer compared to my face, shoulders, hands, etc. because I don't always wear something that shows my legs and that's why they're like that. What I usually do to make it less obvious is that I whiten my face to make my legs and face somehow balanced in tone but I always fail so yeah; let's just accept the reality (‘insert bloody tears’).
As for my outfit, it is both combinations of similar color- Violet. My top and my shorts are both my pambahay and this is how you rock your pambahay clothes.
First, apply your own personal style, and then rock it with good shoes, and accessories. Third, pick a good hairstyle and additional apparel to make it look chicer and lastly, wear your biggest fashionista smile. And now you’re good to go.
I seriously miss my jump shots and I know some of you miss that too or I am just being assuming nonetheless, here is me trying hard to have a jump shot to show to you all.

God Bless everyone!
xoxo,
ATS

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Who's On My Shirt?

So I'm back again. School errands are really insane (in a good way) plus my blog has been sick for few days so no matter how much I love to update you guys, my baby blog can't. Our Araw ng Wika celebration happened last Friday and it was dreamy surreal. It was something I didn't expect to happen even though we spent so much time working hard to give our fellow Hopeans and teachers the best performance. I can say that it was beyond. It was grand and I can't wait to blog about it!
Who's on my shirt, anyway? That's my father when he used to run in the government back in 2003 and idkwhat year. His first run was really victorious but I was young that time so I didn't have the opportunity to congratulate him however, on 2003-his second try, didn't work out for some reasons mainly because dad refused to join other religious affairs. I really believe that what happened was better- extremely better because after his lose, my parents decided to rebuild our one-storey house to up and down house. It was really out of nowhere since our money is not sufficient to rebuild the house but with God, everything turned possible.
So this shirt is 10 years old and still counting. This is before my mom’s but she decided to give this to me. I promise to keep this shirt as long as I can. This is a top that gives too much memories, myriad lessons and far-fetched choices.

In case you thought I had forgotten fashion stuffs and like that, I paired this shirt with my peplum skirt. Shirt and t-shirt tandem is really today's mainstream. As for my accessories I decided to color it with touches of Turquoise and ended my outfit with my sister's cute pair of sandals that perfectly matches my accessories. What do you think?
My dad is really maka-masa and maka-tao. He's a lawyer and he does what is beyond in his job. He accepts countless cases for free. I’m really proud of him and I wanted to be like him- to leave the world with your name etched in people’s minds and hearts.

Conversely, I feel like he shouldn't enter politics anymore because it is risky, he'll have less time for his family, and it just doesn't seem so great. You know, in Philippines, when you are a politician, people will tell you that you're corrupt. There's always a nametag. People judged, judge, and will judge you kahit hindi ka pa nakakagalaw. So yeah, I seriously don't want dad to enter politics ever again and I guess, in the future, I won't join politics because how ironically may it sounds; I'm really shy of facing people and I don’t feel like doing it. I can help people in many other ways, though.
My legs are both my ugly assets and beautiful liabilities. It's kind of fair but it's too big for my figure. I mean, look, it doesn't match my body's proportion. It was weird and I can't help it that's why no matter how fair they are (oh really talaga), I always hide them. Hehe!
Time flies so fast and today is now September- 'ber' months already. Also, according to Ed Sheeran, This year is passing in the blink of an eye. Agree? Agree.
So let us not waste our time. Let us be open to all the opportunities in life.
To end this, I wanted to share to you a quote I found dancing somewhere in the internet:

“Sometimes you have to let things go, so there's room for better things to come into your life.

Happy thoughts everyone. -ATS